D-R-A-M-A

UGH! Let's just say I HATE and yes I know hate is a strong word but I HATE Medco pharmacy- that is the mailorder pharmacy we have to use for our insurance. I have never been a fan of theres because it is such a hassle but I really hate them after the fiasco with all my meds needed for the embryo transfer cycle. My docs office faxed the prescriptions on Friday morning and we had not heard from Medco as of yesterday so my lovely hubby called them last night only to find out nothing had been processed, supposidly they were waiting on clarification from my doctor on the medicines (but they had not called the doctors office to get that clarification). So my hubby and Medco decided that I would call the docs office first thing in the morning to have them call Medco for clarification. So I called the docs office and explained the situation. God bless the lady at the docs office for putting up with this whole situation, she was on the phone for over 30 minutes 5 different people and they still at Medco didn't know what the problem or reason for the hold up on the meds! UGH!!!!!! So FINALLY this afternoon I got a call from the pharmacy saying all the meds but one have been processed- the one is a compound drug that they have to have sent to another pharmacy in our plan. But here is the kicker I need two of the meds this weekend to start them hopefully on Sat. and Medco doesn't know if they can guarentee them to arrive by Friday even if we pay to have them overnighted- UGH!!!!! The only one they can overnight for sure is Lupron which I don't need overnighted because it is just a replacement kit that I have to give the docs office for the one they gave me last week. So now I am waiting for a call from Medco to let me know if they can get me the meds on time or if I have to get them from a local pharmacy.
THE ONLY bright spot in this whole mess is the price of the meds, I was quite pleased (and it made the situation more bearable) with the cost of the meds. So anyhoo that is where we are, all I know is I don't need this added stress!

Acupuncturist

I called the acupuncturist that my fertility doctor recommended yesterday and after waiting till this afternoon with no response I called back and left another message. She- the acupuncturist called me back, she seems very nice and I have set up a consultation for next Monday afternoon. Thankfully my hubby is on a different work schedule so I was able to get an afternoon appointment while the kiddos are napping:) I am excited about getting started. She recommends weekly appointments as well as an appointment before and after the  transfer. Of course hubby wasn't thrilled with the cost, it was the same cost as the 30 min. session we had with the social worker or whatever she was that basically said we are stable to proceed etc... he made the comment that it must be the going rate. He understands the necessity but is just frustrated with how much everything cost, which I am too but I guess we just express it differently. So another step forward in our journey.
I am still feeling tired etc.. so I have my theories either: one I am getting sick because I have a tickle in my throat and congestion etc... or two: my thyroid is out of wack- I am having that tested next week. Or I guess theory 3 could be both! Lupron shots are going well, and I take my last bcp tomorrow:)

We have a timeline

Yesterday was my first ultrasound, this is the one that was going to determine the course of action. So I was a little nervous, just not sure what all to expect. Things went great, ultrasound went fine, I do have two tiny cysts on both ovaries however she said nothing to worry about and they won't be an issue. After the ultrasound we went over how things are going to proceede. We are going to transfer two blastocytes and if all goes well that will happen October 6th. I go back for another ultrasound check on October 1st so we will know at that appointment for sure when the transfer will take place. I started Lupron yesterday, gave my first shot in the doctors office to show them that I could do it- piece of cake. Now when I say piece of cake, I am use to giving myself shots, I take insulin and give myself 5 shots a day so what is one more! On the 15th of this month I will stop taking my birthcontrol pills and that is when the other meds will begin. Just curious anyone who is taking or has taken Lupron, does it make you tired? The last two days I just seemed wiped out. I am excited and nervous. While I was at the doctors office they showed me the transfer room, the recovery room, and went over what to expect etc... My husband has downloaded some relaxing music for me to listen to during and after the transfer. I also talked to the docs about accupunture and they recommend it and recommended someone in the local area, so I will be calling her office on Monday about setting up a consultation. I am not sure how many appointments I will do, but will definately do a couple right around transfer time. I just hope that the accupuncturist has evening hours, with hubby's work schedule it is hard for him to get off work, my parents both work so I really don't have a lot of people to rely on to watch the kiddos especially since the only ones who know about this are my parents. Another question I have is on the paperwork it says after transfer to go home and rest for 3 days, do they mean bedrest or just what? I am sure I will ask to clarify that with me however I was just wondering what everyone else has done. My parents are going to be out of town during our transfer so I won't be able to get any help from them. Also did you drive yourself home after the transfer or will I need someone else to go with me? Just some things that I have thought of after my appointment yesterday.
So that is the latest, exciting, we are one step closer each day:)

Our Appointment

Well our appointment was really interesting to say the least. It went well, it was just for a lack of a better word awkward. Anyhoo we are on track for embryo adoption, that is what we have decided to do. So we met with clinical social worker this afternoon, who basically just asked us a bunch of questions similar to a home study questionnaire- that was the awkward part. My husband thought it was a racket for what they charged for the 30 minutes we met with this lady. Of course he thinks the whole thing is a racket as far as cost he thinks the infertility specialist and adoption agencies just take advantage of couples who cannot have children on their own. But don't get me wrong, he is on board and excited about this opportunity. We have chosen our embryo's (we actually chose 3 different sets because the one lady who knows exactly which ones are "spoken" for was not there at that time). So anyhoo we are moving ahead. I also scheduled my ultrasound to check my lining next Friday, that is when they will discuss the medicines etc... and I will have a better idea of the time frame we are looking at, and when things will actually take place. Very exciting!!!!!

made an appearance

Well today is the day we meet with the infertility specialist and today is also the day that AF decided to finally show up. It is so funny to me that for 7+ years I have been wanting AF NOT to show up and have a positive pregnancy test  (which has actually happened a couple of times). LOL! Now I am looking forward to AF finally showing up and starting birth control pills so I can get moving toward embryo adoption or egg donation etc.... So today should be an interesting day, I am a little nervous as to what will happen at the docs office and proceeding forward. Only time will tell.
Today I have a lot on my plate but I have also completed a lot in the last couple of days. The consignment sale is over, and I did okay, to be honest I was bummed that I didn't make more money. I heard from a couple of people saying the consignments location and advertising were all poor:(  bummer. Today I go and pick up my left over stuff and pick up my check. The bad part is they don't have appointments for pick up you just come between a certain time- 5 hour time frame which also happens to be right in the middle of our doctors appointment and then getting dinner ready so I am not sure how all that will play out. My daughter started school yesterday and all went well with that other than one sad mommy. I am glad that she did so well. The birthday party this past weekend went well, the kids had a blast, so we only have one more party left- next weekend the family party for my daughter. So I am getting things checked off my list. I think I will have some relief after today's doctors appointment- wish me luck!

appointment

So we are now at day 35 and still no sign of A.F. gotta love it! UGH so frustrating. However on a good note we have decided to move ahead/ look into other options as mentioned in my previous post. So we have an appointment the end of the month to discuss our options and meet with a counselor to make sure we are "mentally stable" to go through anything beyond what we have done etc... Should be interesting, and I am excited. I am trying not to get too excited because I have been down this road before when I thought this was the answer and it turned out not to be, so much can happen. I just hope and pray this is the door we have been waiting for to open for us and our prayers be answered to growing our family. It is hard not to be hopeful but at the same time I worry about it which I know doesn't help our cause. I guess my worry is what if for some reason this is not the answer, then we are done:(  I am trying to have faith and put it in God's hands but I know this is something our whole family really really wants- now when I say whole family I am talking about my husband and myself and of course the kids talk about wanting a baby etc... they know nothing as to what we are trying to do etc... I am just trying to stay positive and hopeful.
I have been a very busy crazy woman lately, I have so much going on (which helps get my mind of things) with the up coming consignment sale ( it is soooooo hard to get rid of the kids clothes etc.. but I cannot keep everything plus the last time I made some good money that we could really use right about now!), school getting ready to start (which I dread) and both the kids birthday's = 3 birthday parties one family party for each of them and a joint friends party. So if I don't update for a little bit you will know why:)
Still hoping to get some feedback on anyone who has done or is currently going through embryo or egg adoption. Would like some info since we are looking into those options.

looking into something new

Well we are exploring a new option- embryo adoption or egg donation. We are just exploring our options and seeing if this is something that will get us our ultimate goal of having another child. Lots to think about and explore. If anyone out there has experience in this please share:) This last month I have been using the ovulation prediction tests etc. and I did not/ have not ovulated (I am at day 29). So I guess my body decided to take a break again.
Since my last update we have taken care of the "lemon" car that we purchased. The dealership we purchased it from would not help us out so ultimately we had to move on since the laws don't protect us. We ended up taking a hit on it, but glad to be rid of it and hopefully in a reliable car. We ended up getting a very nice mini-van, yes I know I got rid of my van because I wanted something different however to get the space I wanted and the gas mileage etc... this was the way to go. It will be very nice come vacation time this fall with the kiddos because it has two tv screens/ two dvd players etc... We have had the mini-van for about 2 weeks when my hubby backs out of the driveway and backs into his own car! Um hello the mini-van has a backup camera!! His car is just fine but of course my mini-van is going to need some work- paint. So frustrating.