Tuesday, October 9, 2012

CRAZY I know!!!!

I know it is crazy to think/hope after trying for almost 10 years that I would be pregnant but that is what happens each time it gets close to my "time". I wouldn't call it time of the month because it isn't exactly month-LOL! This last time really got me, I was feeling nauseous, of course my boobs were tender you know all the symptoms but no I started:( I hate to feel so disappointed and for lack of a better word depressed that I wasn't pregnant. I know I am VERY VERY blessed with three beautiful, healthy children; but I would LOVE another kiddo and the only way that is going to happen is if A.) we win the lotto- which we don't play so kinda hard to win or B.) we get pregnant on our own, which would be like winning the lotto!
I am seeing lots of posts lately of woman who are trying EA or other methods of getting pregnant again, and I have to admit I am a little jealous, I would LOVE to try again and be pregnant again- I LOVED it!!!! and of course love my kiddos. Don't get me wrong I am very happy for them but at the same time wish we could.
Anyhoo thats my little pitty party.


  1. I have those same thoughts after 5 years of infertility. I hate the ups and downs each month but I do believe that God still does miracles and could give us both one if He chooses.