LOL at myself:)

Ok maybe I'm a little sleep deprived, pre-occupied or both!!! Just did Miss L's laundry and when I got the laundry out of the dryer there were little cotton balls all over the clothes??!! So I go to fold the laundry, come to find out disposable diapers don't laundry to well-LOL!! Apparently instead of throwing her diaper in the diaper ch.amp I threw it in her laundry basket! Needless to say it was a long weekend, and an even longer week without my hubby. I will be so glad for Wednesday night to get here when he will be home and off work for five days:)

Two month check-up

Yesterday was Miss L's two month check-up, good grief where does the time go?? Miss L is perfect (but then we already knew that). She seems to be getting over the virus/cold. Miss L is basically an average length, chubby little girl with lots of brains:) she is in the 50% for length and the 90% for weight and head circumference. I dis go ahead and get her shots since she hadn't run a fever since Sunday and seemed to be doing better! I hate shots but they are a necessary evil. Poor L had to get two shots, one in each leg-OUCH! yesterday afternoon you could tell the shots were bothering her, she was very fussy and just not herself. I'm hoping today will be better.
Well this morning I dropped M off at school, I'm home pumping and then heading off to a parent mtg at H's school. It's never ending, run, run,run!!! Oh almost forgot I FINALLY got L's 6week baby pictures and announcements- long story, just glad to FINALLY have them even though the order was screwed up!

a sick little one:(

We had a busy weekend getting ready for H's big family birthday party- he had a great time and even told us it was the BEST birthday ever till everyone had to leave- LOL! Saturday I spent all day getting ready for the party, cleaning the house etc... and poor Miss L just wasn't herself, fussy, spitting up quite a bit, not taking all her bottles etc.. She had been having some congestion that I was using saline and suction but really wasn't getting much. Then on Sunday poor Miss L started running a fever, it never went over 100 but still worried me. My hubby also left yesterday afternoon for 10 days on a business trip- I was already worried about having all three kiddos and keeping my sanity etc... I noticed throughout the day yesterday that Miss L seemed to be getting worse- I could see it in her eyes, and she was getting more congested. I was surprised that she slept through the night, her last bottle was around 9pm and I had to wake her up around 6:30 am to give her a bottle (I had to wake her because I didn't want her waking up as we were going out the door to take my other daughter to school etc...). She seemed really congested, had developed a cough etc but wasn't running a fever. I decided I was going to call the doc first thing and get an appointment, my main concern was rsv- we dealt with that with H when he was a baby. Luckily I got a morning appointment with the pediatrician I usually try to avoid but he was actually great with L and with me too:) He too was concerned about rsv so they tested L which involved a nose swab, and a heel prick:( L was a trooper! THANKFULLY it was not rsv just a nasty virus but that also means there is nothing they can do. L has her 2 month check-up on Wed. (they did weight her today and my little chunky monkey is 12 pounds 10oz!!!!!) which I am glad that we will be going back this week so they can determine if she is getting better etc... Although I am seriously thinking about waiting on her shots until she is better- anyone have thoughts on that?  I just want L to get better I HATE it when one of my kiddos is sick:( L is just pitiful, you can tell she feels bad but she still gives me the BIGGEST grins that just melt my heart:)
On another note, M had a great day at school- hope this is a trend:) Although mornings are still horrible- she just is NOT a morning person at all!!! I am just happy happy happy to hear that she is having good days at school and seeing her shining face when I pick her up at school.

What a Week, and it's not even Friday yet!!!

WHEW!!!! What a week I have had! I am EXHAUSTED! I have not adjusted to getting up at 5am to start my day. I haven't figured out how to fit some down time in for me once the kiddos are in bed, and get to bed at a decent time (before 11:30 preferably!). With all that I have been busy busy busy and had an emotional week. Monday wasn't too bad, but it was filled with getting ready for the first day of school. Tuesday was an emotional day with M's first day of school (see previous blog post for more info!). She did great going into school, but mommy didn't. I was soooo excited to pick her up from school and hear all about her first day. Unfortunately M had a rough first day at school and was in tears! She was upset because she missed me, she didn't like how loud it was in the cafeteria and they didn't give her enough time to finish her lunch:( She didn't want to go back to school she just wanted to stay home with me. We stayed positive with her and fortunately she went back to school the next day without much fuss- but she did let us know she wasn't happy about it! Wednesday was a better day for her-YAH!!! So this morning I didn't hear anything about not wanting to go to school etc... However this afternoon when I picked her up we had more tears because I was a bad mommy and forgot to put dessert in her lunch box:( I felt HORRIBLE!! But I also know she never gets to the dessert part of her lunch because she is a slow eater and ran out of time. I did make it up to her by taking her out after school today for a sweet treat:) She was also very upset because the teacher didn't call her name to pick something out of the treasure box (she had gotten something the past two days; it's for good behavior) and she didn't have any strikes:( I said what probably happened is M's name is last on the class list due to our last name and she probably forgot. OH MY HEART just hurts for M, she is really struggling with school, I just want to wrap my arms around her and keep her at home forever! BUT I know that would not be good for her.
Yesterday was my son's 4th birthday! But before we get to his birthday, he had a peanut challenge at the allergist yesterday morning and PASSED- YAH!!!!!! So H can now have peanuts:) So for H's birthday lunch we went to Ch.ik Fi.l a where he could eat chicken nuggets and play on the playground for the first time:) We also went out to dinner to celebrate H's birthday, he got to choose where we went and of course we went to Yan.g K.ee Noo.dle his FAVORITE place! Then we came back to the house and had cookie cake- his choice once again (something he has not been able to have/enjoy due to his allergies) and opened presents from us and my parents (his BIG family party is this weekend and his friends party will be in September. M and H have birthday's just a couple weeks apart so we are doing their friends party together).
I would say I am looking forward to Sunday to relax a little bit but that isn't going to happen because I have to take Hubby to the airport to fly out on a business trip- he will be gone 11 days:(  UGH! It is going to be a LONG 11 days for me.
Through all this craziness L is doing fabulous! She is my little chunky monkey:) She has her 2 month check up next week and I am anxious to see how much she weights! For the most part she is sleeping through the night (the other night we had a rough night she just wanted to be held, I think she was having gas issues), with her last feeding around 10 or 11pm and going to sleep afterwards and then waking either right when I get up at 5am or after my shower. So thankfully I am not having to feed her in the middle of the night with the little sleep I am getting.
I am hoping and praying that the end of my week and the weekend is better than my week has been. I am also asking for prayers while my hubby is gone for 11 days. Thank you:)

Rough morning for Mommy!!!!

I have had a very rough morning, hoping my day gets better!!!! First of all this is kind of an emotional week for me, yesterday Miss L turned 8 weeks old; today my oldest started kindergarten and tomorrow my son turns 4years old- my kiddos are growing up WAY TO FAST:(
Our morning was going smoothly (aside from Miss L spitting up on daddy's uniform for work and then peeing on him while he was changing her-LOL!!!), M woke up without any issues for the first day of school, ate breakfast, and got ready for school without any issues from her:) which is HUGE because she is NOT a morning person and she has to get up super early since school starts at 7:50am!!  H slept in since he didn't have school, so I just put flip flops on him and he rode to M's school in pj's. We were able to get pictures of M in her school uniform with mommy and daddy. Then it was time for daddy to head to work and mommy to take M to school for her first day of kindergarten. Everything was going well, and I was holding it together well until carpool line. M decided she wanted to go through carpool line, which I was okay with however it moved faster than I anticipated and before I knew it she was out of the car and on her way into school like a big girl (she looked so small, with her backpack on going into school with the "big" kids). The only problem was mommy wasn't prepared and I didn't get to give her a kiss or a hug:( Well as I pulled off I lost it, I was a mess crying and trying to drive while H is in the backseat asking me over and over what was wrong? Then next thing I know I am getting pulled over by a cop! Of course the cop walks up and I am a sobbing mess, and I try to explain to him what was going on however he was none to sympathetic. Apparently when I registered my vehicle at the beginning of the year I forgot to put the renewal sticker on the license plate (it was cold and snowy when I did it and then just forgot to put the sticker on) so that is why I was pulled over- thankfully I had the sticker on the registration in the glove box so he made me get out and put it on right then, He also said I was speeding- I was going at most 5 over the speed limit, I was going down a large hill and breaking trying to slow my momentum when he pulled me over. UGH!!! Just what I needed this morning! Thankfully he only gave me a warning, but something tells me he will be looking for me each morning!
I am looking forward to this afternoon when I get to pick M up from school and hear all about her day. I hope and pray that she has a fabulous first day and loves her new school, classmates and teacher.

I DID it!!!!!

So last night I was determined I was going to get that Mo.by wrap thing on and use it!!! Well after getting some tips, and seeing some more pictures I got the wrap on with Miss L in it!!!!! YAH!!! I was so excited, now it wasn't perfect but I was so proud that I actually got to the point where she was in it and I was using it. I am sure after more use and practice I will get better at it.
Today was a FABULOUS day:) Miss L slept through the night till 7am WOO-HOO!!! We had a good morning, things went smoothly and I decided to take advantage of the LOVELY and yes I do mean LOVELY weather we have been having. For most of the summer we have been having HOT HOT days with HIGH humidity. But thankfully this week we are in the 80's with yesterday and today in the low 80's with low humidity. So I decided to venture to the zoo with the kiddos and we had a WONDERFUL day together it was really really great. Miss L slept through most of it but when I fed her we were at the playground at the zoo in the shade and she LOVED it:) I was so happy to have a great day with my kiddos before school starts next week for my oldest. Trying to get as much "FUN" in before school starts, who knows what tomorrow will bring:)

I think I need a PH.D!!!

Okay back when I was pregnant I bought one of the Mo.by wraps because they looked comfy and would come in handy with three kiddos etc... Well I got it out the other day to attempt to use it because it really could come in handy. LOL!!! I could NOT believe the instructions- 8 yes 8 steps to put the stupid thing on and I was stuck on step #3 UGH! I swear I think I need a PH.D to figure this thing out, that or a rocket scientist neither of which I have. I have yet to re-attempt putting the thing on, I am so frustrated with it but at the same time I really want to use it. Anyone out there have one and have any advice?
On a different note I think my kiddos have been watching way too much television between me not being able to get out and the heat etc... So today the weather was GORGEOUS, low 80's for temps with low humidity etc.. so I decided to take the kiddos to the park as a surprise. Well all they did was complain from the time we got there, they wanted to go to a different park, why didn't I pack a lunch?, etc... then my son tells me it would have been better if they had a tv there! I asked Where at the park? his reply: Yep momma! UGH!!!! So frustrating. I thought about attempting the zoo tomorrow however with todays attempt a bomb I am not so sure that is a good idea. So after all there complaints, etc... we left the park after only 20 or so minutes there. The sad part is that Miss L was really enjoying the fresh air!

growing up too fast!!!

Well our little Miss L is growing and changing so much! In the last week or so she has started smiling at us, her face just lights up and I LOVE it!!! Then today she found her voice and she was laughing and "talking" to me. Oh it was so cute and precious. I just love her soooo soooo much and I am loving this opportunity to experience it once again.
A couple of you have mentioned pictures and wanting to see our precious little one. Well here is the deal, I do not feel comfortable posting pictures of my kiddos on a public blog, I am sorry but that is just how I feel. I have a private blog that I try to post pictures on when blogger will let me. I have apparently reached my limit of pictures I can post? So I have to make slide shows of my pictures and post those- I don't really care for this method but I don't have much choice.
Pictures, we are still having "issues" over the pictures. I really really want to go to a "real" photographer however hubby says no and I understand money is tight especially this month (we have the start of school which means school supplies for two kiddos, uniforms for one, two kiddos birthdays which involves three parties, presents etc... and our oldest daughters gymnastics dues are do and our son is starting soccer so we have that to pay for as well- OUCH!). However our Miss L is only little once and I want to capture that in good quality pictures. We still haven't heard back from the e-mail that I sent last week, about some questions that I had and what we wanted on announcements. My mom ordered her pictures online (typically we order all the pictures and share them with the grandparents but my mother can be VERY stubborn!) and she already has hers!! So I am really pissed now but what can I do?!
My incision did open back up some, I think when the doctor used the silver nitrate on it caused it to open back up. However I think that is closing back up and I am not too concerned about it. I am taking care of it, cleaning it with peroxide and bandaging it twice a day and hopefully that will take care of it.
This week is the last week of "summer" for us because our oldest daughter starts school next week:( I am so not ready. Thankfully this week the temps are suppose to "cool" off  with less humidity so I am planning so do some special outdoor activities with the kiddos before school starts. Hope everyone has a great week!

6 week check-up

I had my six week check-up yesterday and all went well. I also had an incision check, where he said it is all but healed up and its closed up finally! He did have to take some silver nitrate to "burn" some "extra" skin, let me tell you that is not a pleasant experience- it is the second time he has had to do that! I was sooooo excited to know I wouldn't have to come back. I don't know what I am going to do with myself- LOL! I have been going to their office at least once a week since April! However with that said when I was cleaning my incision (it still needs it and to be bandaged because it still has a little drainage) it looked like the incision had opened up some?! I am hoping that it did not and that it won't require a doctor visit!
On the picture front, we picked out the pictures we wanted, the wording we want on announcements and e-mailed everything to the photographer the other night however we have yet to hear anything:(
Well that's the latest here, we have a busy weekend that includes back to school shopping. Hope everyone had a great weekend!

Pictures

Well we finally took our little one for pictures, she is exactly 6 weeks yesterday!!! We took her to a different portrait place than we normally go. We have been going to the same portrait studio since our oldest daughter was a newborn, so I was nervous. We went to the place where we had our 3d/4d ultrasound done and where my hubby has connections. So Anyhoo the pictures are adorable because they are of our sweet little one however I was not real impressed and really disappointed in our session. I took two outfit changes and all she took pictures of was her in her diaper, which I wanted some that way, just not all. She had only allowed a half hour for our session which isn't much time at all! She kept saying I wish she was more sleepy- well had I known that's what she wanted I could have scheduled the appointment when she is normally sleepy. We did get some good pictures there just isn't a good selection, it is a lot of the same poses. I also wanted to a collage of pictures of her body parts-hands, feet, head etc... Well when we got online to view our pictures there were only ones of her head and feet, even though she took Picts of her hands. So to sum things up I'm pretty bummed, however hubby thinks they are great and since he is friends with them I can't voice my opinion. Truth be told I want to go some where else to have her pictures re-done! However hubby won't hear of it:( so I just have to make due with what we have!
On the milk production front, I have been taking the herbals since last Thursday without any noticeable difference in milk amounts:( I'm really disappointed I was hoping this was the answer! So it looks like I'm going to be returning the pump and going to strictly formula. As of right now I'm lucky if I produce 3oz of milk a day, I just don't see any reason to keep doing it, however I'm having a very difficult time giving it up! I feel let down, and such a failure, it's like my body can't do anything right.